The year began 23 days earlier than the usual calendar year.. It started on 8th dec 2010 when I was elevated to the position of Daddy/ Achhan... The year has practically been only revolving around the lil' prince.. The wardrobe seemed shrunk as slowly he took over 2/3 compartments, filled with his clothes.. Diapers became the must-buy item in the shopping list.. House is messy with toys scattered all over... Calendar included vaccinations and appointments with paedetricians..
You can't talk when baby is sleeping..TV may need to play same song again n again since baby likes to hear the music... Your life may be yours only when he sleeps.. U can roam freely, do things that you want to do, relax till .... "awwwwwwwww"... The baby has woken up...and you rush back to the Matrix... As the movie says "the Matrix has you"
So what's in it for me.. Or rather any other parent?????
Maybe it has something to do with that killer smile which one gets from the lil one... Or maybe the zeal with which he comes rushing to u as soon as u come back home... He believes that I will catch him and so laughs when I lift him in the air.. Looks eager to learn things... to clap..to make faces..to make funny sounds..perfect stressreliever.. and then there is the lifetime experience...watching him grow.. His first rollover, his first crawl, his first few steps, first climb etc etc etc...Each has a big story to it...
He seems pretty grown up now at 375 days..with the fourth teeth now visible and the bits of naughty-ness in his actions.. he is growing fast...n that is worrying at times.. because sometimes I wonder whether the dad in me is growing at same pace??
Am I in for the game of Daddy-ship yet?.. I remember so many sacrifices made by my dad for my sake...to ensure I grow well... that I get the comforts of a good life... And that makes me wonder whether I have reached that level...would I place my baby's interests ahead of me? Would I be able to do away with the craving for the weekend picnics and devote quality time with him? Would I be happy in waking up in wee hours of night to put him to sleep and waking up at 6.30am on Sunday morning because his sleep is over and he is looking for company? Would I be able to give him the best-est of the education? Would I be able to be a good friend to him? Doubts keep coming on...
Someday I will get answers to them..but as of now, I am as confused as my 1 year old kid about the life ahead as a father !!
Rgds
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